Through The Looking Glass: Part III

alice_through_the_looking_glassI would jump in front of a speeding car to save my daughter’s life. I say this with no hesitation and with a really powerful conviction which surprises, and, frankly, scares the hell out of me. Where does this feeling come from? I experienced it from day one with Maddie, when I hardly knew her. To think, I would sacrifice my own life for that of a tiny little  stranger.

I knew when our daughter was born that I would be taking care of her a lot. I prepared as much as I could. I read all the books I could find, talked to other parents. I knew this would be a huge responsibility. This small creature would be completely dependent on me, for food, for shelter, for warmth, for moving about. Her life was, literally, in my hands.

What I didn’t consider, and what I slowly came to realize, was that MY LIFE was in HER hands as well. This was a two way street. While I was busy nurturing this baby and helping her develop into a little girl, she was doing the same for me, helping me evolve into the father I am today.  She has taught me patience, empathy, and honesty. My intentions have become much clearer, my resolve much stronger, my energy more focused. She keeps me grounded and present. She has helped define me as a person and shown me what I care for most deeply in life.

We are connected on so many different levels and we affect each others behavior. My view of the world has changed.

This is what has surprised and delighted me the most about becoming a parent.

And to think, she’s accomplished all this and she’s only 4…

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4 thoughts on “Through The Looking Glass: Part III

  1. Jomama says:

    Another great post to get me thinking. Parental love is a shockingly powerful feeling. I remember being intimidated by it as a child, and now understand it from the other direction.

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